just like that. from a hundred miles an hour to asleep in a nanosecond. i wanted so badly to lie down next to him on the couch, to wrap my arms around him and sleep. not fuck, like in those movies. not even have sex. just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. but i lacked the courage and he had a girlfriend and i was gawky and he was gorgeous and i was hopelessly boring and he was endlessly fascinating. so i walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, i was drizzle and he was a hurricane.

                                                                                                     john green - looking for alaska